Tornado (real one and me)

OK, I hate this! I want to go back Finland where there is a proper internet connection that is working right! AGAIN! They fucking disconnected me AGAIN!!! Now they accuse me for copyright violation! AGAIN I USE ONLY IRC, SKYPE, MESSENGER AND FIREFOX AND I DO NOT DOWNLOAD ANYTHING!
So now I need to call to some person to talk about my "violation" and they do not take appointments on the same day so I don't get my internet working this week because I'm leaving for Chicago on Friday. For fuck sake! This really pisses me off. Luckily I talked with my mom yesterday. But now I won't hear Tarmos voice until next week...
This is not my day, I'm so tired and pissed off!

I didn't sleep well thanks to someone so I was really tired and I needed to get up early so that I could finish my readings. And Tuesdays are always long days and there was this tornado warning so I couldn't get home. But I'll start from yesterday.

I decided to go to CoralRidge to get some post cards and because of that I needed to read late. I'll have my exam on tomorrow night from 8 to 9 pm. Then I need to start reading for my endocrinology and then I have two weeks time to catch up everything and then it starts all over again. And I asked my professor in Finland about my courses for the next Spring. There's this one course I can't do but we'll figure out what I do with it when I get back in Finland. And I'm still trying to think what to do about the "job course". Maybe I'll figure that out too when I get back. I just need to finish my Masters Thesis and after that I'll think what I want to do. The course would be useful but at the same time I want to graduate asap. I'll see.

And as I already mentioned, I talked with my mom yesterday. And I asked if she was ok because of the dream I had last week. She bursted in tears and sobbed that she's ok, just stressed out because of the water damage and because she misses me. I also asked about my birth (since I've been inspired lately because of this Developmental course) and she told that I was born on week 30. 30! I always knew I was born early, but THAT early... (Her placenta was falling apart.) I wonder if that affects on anything...

And I had a good laugh yesterday because of my self. I was writing a card for my niece and I was thinking in English while writing in Finnish, the I thought that oh no, now I wrote it in Finnish, then I thought no, wait a minute, that's what I was supposed to do :D I'm so funny.

I was reading some Finnish web pages today before my late discussion for two hours and when I finally left to my class, I was really confused and it felt unreal, because I felt that I was in Finland but then again I was walking in Iowa. And it was raining really heavily today and my shoes didn't even get wet! Or they did but my socks didn't! Good shoes!

And I've been feeling a bit down. (Now even more thanks to the internet thing. Well, actually, I'm just pissed off because of that.) But this is weird. When I was single (few years ago when my last relationship ended) I felt down but now this feels better because I'm not alone. I know there is someone else who is missing me also, I'm in someones heart. So my heart is not broken, it just misses someone badly. I'm not alone with my feelings and it makes me feel better.
As I have already mentioned, we're going to Chicago next weekend. But somehow I'm not as excited as I would like to be :( I do want to go and I know it'll be fun. I just need to get the tomorrows exam off me and maybe then I can think something else too...

Weather has been gray and we had a big thunderstorm, Fall is coming. And today when our discussion started at 7 pm, there was sirens and people looked a bit worried. It was a tornado warning. We decided to continue and go to the basement if there is another alarm. On the same time the TA checked where the tornado is going (he said it was in Kalona). At 7.30 pm we got another alarm and we hurried up our questions and finished the class. There was people waiting downstairs and the wind was quite harsh. I could see the lightning but there was no sound. And the lightnings were small and continuous and at the same place for long time. It didn't rain anymore and finally the bus driver opened the bus at 8 pm but we had to wait some other bus so I was heading back home at 8.30 pm. It was quite exciting but what makes me wonder, is that people in here didn't know what to do. it was weird.

So then I got home, found out the not so nice surprise and here I am, at out ITC lab. I just needed to come and write these things down because I don't have the time to do that tomorrow, I need to pack and do some reading on Thursday and on Friday we'll leave as soon as our classes are over.

So I survived from the tornado :D and I'm pissed off again. In a week I've been here for two months, half a way already. And I'm missing my love. But still not homesick, I just miss our Finnish systems... As I said to Kaisa, I do not miss places, I miss people. And I miss them a lot now.

Not in the Mood

Ok. I don't know why but I'm not in the mood for studying. Luckily I already read enough for today and I did my neurobiology review questions (though I didn't know answers for all of them) so now I just need to do something until my last class for today starts (in an hour). I'll have my exam tomorrow but I'll have several hours to go through my notes for that because we don't have the class for that tomorrow. I'm so happy I bought the mp3 player, it makes me feel a lot better to listen the music ^^

Oh it's so scary to go through those book detectors in the library when you are listening music because you can hear them scanning you! (Because I just went through them...)

I'm so tired. I didn't sleep well last night and I still woke up at 7:30 am. I need a good sleep and them I'm motivated again. And my face is peeling still so I don't want to be in public places, I'd just like to hide somewhere to recover... Though it was my own fault so let the girl suffer!

I got such a funny messages from Josh today, I couldn't do anything but laugh!

Hope u r having a wonderful time staring at animal brains!
Remember. If u hear the brain screaming back at u it is time to switch ur major.

So funny! Like I would torture the brains o.O but if I now see nightmares of brains screaming at me I know who to blame!

I booked a hotel for me and Tarmo for the couple of nights we're going to be in Nashville before going to New York. This hotel is near a Mall so if we get bored, there's something to do. Because there weren't any cheap hotels in downtown. We still need to get a place where to stay after Christmas... I put note today on this market place and I'll keep it there until we get a place to stay. We just calculated that if we stayed at a hotel that costs $50 for a night, it'd be over $1000 per person and that's too much! It'd be cheaper to rent a room/house but there doesn't seem to be any rooms with furnitures... But we'll figure out something.

And by the way. I'm going to gain some weight in here... There are so many cheeses available when I go to my lunch every day and because I love cheese, I eat it and then I get fat! In Finland cheese is so expensive that we can't afford to buy it all the time, not to mention different kind of cheeses! (Today I had a salad where there was feta, cheddar and cottage cheese!) And I really need to start to go to the gym but I don't seem to have the energy for that! It opens too late during the weeks so that I can't go there before my classes, I study so late that I'm too tired to go there in the evening and on Saturdays I'm elsewhere or having a hangover and on Sundays I'm too busy with my studies because I didn't do anything during the weekend! Okay, okay, only excuses I know, but a good ones! Though I really need to start exercising again...

I don't get it. Why am I this tired? I study hard in Finland too, all my books have been in English for the last three years and it's not THAT different to study in here (except that the classes start late). Maybe it's because I didn't sleep well during the weekend and because here I HAVE to read all the time because of the exams. I'll have two exams next week so I have to start to go through my notes for them on the weekend...

And we should book our hostel for our Thanksgiving trip in Boston. I'll do that tonight.

But I just realized that I should do something and now that I'm not going to study anymore, I'll make this time useful and go to buy some software...

Batman

There are no ghosts in here, at least ones who use my computer...

I had a nice weekend, on Sunday I went outside to read but it got too hot soon so I returned inside, read a bit more and then Meike called me if I'd like to go to the park. So I went and while Paola and Melissa were at the church we just hang around and when it got dark and the mosquitos almost ate us alive, we played batman. (Don't ask any questions about that.) After that we got an invitation by Melissa to have some dinner and Paola and I went to her place. There was also two other friends of Melissa and we had nice time. I advertised Finland ^^ And I was back home (again) at 2 am. But it was so much fun!

And by the way, three people have asked directions from me, local people! :D

We had a free day today so I read and read and just watched TV at Kaisas. And now I'm SO tired, I had to come home because I almost fell asleep at Kaisas. I still try to hang in here for another hour and then I go to bed.

I had so many things I was supposed to write but because I'm so tired, I can't remember what they were... I just try to keep awake...