Three Months

I've been here for over three months now! So two thirds down! HA!
And as you probably can hear (read) I'm in a better mood :) I worked hard this weekend and got some work done and noticed that I got my spontanious nature back :) Last night I went to movies in a 2 minute warning time :D (Saw4, wasn't scary, only gross)...

But nothing new in here... Just studying all the time so that I don't need to give any thoughts to studies on vacation... I'll have an exam on Tuesday, report to write for Tuesday, article to analyze for tomorrow (well I did that already) and neurobiology questions to be done for Tuesday. Plus I need to read endocrinology for the week after Thanksgiving as I don't want to read it on Thanksgiving.
And we need to construct the gift basket for Melissa's Uncle and his wife too... So we're going to buy some wine and cheese...
And we planned our Thanksgiving trip today, was supposed to do that last night but I didn't know Paola was coming and I left to the movies... What else?
I don't know why I was so depressed last week... I just wanted to run away from every social event that was ahead of me. I just wanted to be under my blanket and not to get up at all... I missed Tarmo so badly.

But even though this is hard (not that I ever assumed this to be easy) I'm still happy that I left here. This has made me stronger and taught me to be independent. At the same time I know now more than ever that I love Tarmo and he's the one I want to be with. I've learned that I need him. For my sanity. I need him physically and mentally. With him I'm calm and whole. At least if I'm not calm he'll make me calm :D
It's amazing that you need to leave your familiar environment to see these things. I appreciate more than ever what I have and where I live. And that's good.

As I said to a friend of mine, this was probably the worst time I could've picked to leave. But this was my last and only chance. So I just need to deal with it and be happy for what I've learned.

Few Days Left

I'm really getting more and more butterflies all over my body.

Now my transportation from the airport to the hotel is in order. I actually e-mailed them. We were originally told to call there (americans love calling obviously even though it's cheaper and possible to do everything online, I called TOEFL things even though it'd been easier to make the reservation for the test time online, I would've reserved the hotel via the internet but their pages didn't work, now I'm wiser and try to do things first online no matter what they tell us. But back to my issue...) but as I explained I tried to find some kind of reservation thing from the interned and found one, but was too stupid to use it (the reservation needs to be done 24h before arriving). So I e-mailed them instead and asked lot of questions. They didn't answer my questions but said that I could come to their counter when I arrive and they'll take me where I need to go. So nice!

So now everything should be in order. Well I still need to check that my flights still exist but I can do that only on Thursday. I made some plans for Saturday too! I think that I'm too excited to sleep late on Saturday, so I'll get up for the breakfast and when the New Student Welcome Center opens (at 10am) I'll be there, check my e-mail etc and head to the town to shop new (hopefully dream) bag! And other essentials. I even got company, I'll meet Kaisa (one of the ISEP exchange student, from Finland too!) at the Center.

Tomorrow we'll clean the house, do some laundry and Vepa will dye my hair. And I'll pack my bags. I still don't get it that I'm going in a few days!!! On Thursday afternoon we'll go to Tampere where we'll leave at 3 am to Helsinki. Luckily Dad promised to drive me there. Mom and Tarmo will also come, when I leave Tarmo will head to Helsinki for Ropecon.

And then it's it.

ps. I just packed my laptop bag, I got all wires and other stuff (e.g. webcam, chargers) there so neatly that I have one department of the bag empty! So I can fit there that stuff that was meant to go my handbag. Nice!