Three Months

I've been here for over three months now! So two thirds down! HA!
And as you probably can hear (read) I'm in a better mood :) I worked hard this weekend and got some work done and noticed that I got my spontanious nature back :) Last night I went to movies in a 2 minute warning time :D (Saw4, wasn't scary, only gross)...

But nothing new in here... Just studying all the time so that I don't need to give any thoughts to studies on vacation... I'll have an exam on Tuesday, report to write for Tuesday, article to analyze for tomorrow (well I did that already) and neurobiology questions to be done for Tuesday. Plus I need to read endocrinology for the week after Thanksgiving as I don't want to read it on Thanksgiving.
And we need to construct the gift basket for Melissa's Uncle and his wife too... So we're going to buy some wine and cheese...
And we planned our Thanksgiving trip today, was supposed to do that last night but I didn't know Paola was coming and I left to the movies... What else?
I don't know why I was so depressed last week... I just wanted to run away from every social event that was ahead of me. I just wanted to be under my blanket and not to get up at all... I missed Tarmo so badly.

But even though this is hard (not that I ever assumed this to be easy) I'm still happy that I left here. This has made me stronger and taught me to be independent. At the same time I know now more than ever that I love Tarmo and he's the one I want to be with. I've learned that I need him. For my sanity. I need him physically and mentally. With him I'm calm and whole. At least if I'm not calm he'll make me calm :D
It's amazing that you need to leave your familiar environment to see these things. I appreciate more than ever what I have and where I live. And that's good.

As I said to a friend of mine, this was probably the worst time I could've picked to leave. But this was my last and only chance. So I just need to deal with it and be happy for what I've learned.