Halloween

Ok, finally some time to write here again... First about my amazing weekend:
On Friday we went to carve some pumpkins and of course me and Meike decided to take the most difficult one, we need some challenge for the first pumpkin carved ever :D We had only 1,5 hours time and we run a bit out of time so we just had to do some short cuts... But it was beautiful! And quite well done for the first pumpkin ;) After that we went to Loris place to eat some pizza and pumpkin pie (it was warm and one piece was enough... I can't decide if it was good or bad...). And after that we headed to Frightmare Forest in Cedar Rapids! It was so fun, FUN! There was this forest where they had set up some "haunted house" though it was in a forest. And as it was night we went there, it was dark and there was this dimly light path we had to follow. Me and Kaisa squeezed each others hands so tight! (I love the fact that I can put my brains aside and be frightened about stupid things.) The first third part we went first (there could be up to 6 people in one group) and it was the scariest part! It was mostly outside and there were these actors that followed us and kept scary noises (they had masks on and looked like really scary monsters!) and the "haunted house" part there was these corners behind which the actors jumped and screamed. As did we too :D Then we didn't want to be the first ones anymore though it was scary anyway. Quite in the end there was this bump in the ground and behind it there was a person who crawled towards us when we passed the place and started to follow us! And oh my god how we ran! :D Too bad you couldn't take pictures in there... It was so fun!!! And the path was like over half an hour, usually they are something like 15 minutes... There were some really lame things too of course, but you have to have something for everyone. After that we went to a bar and had only one drink :)


The next day I had ticket to the football game and I picked really good day to go there, we won and the game was the most exciting game ever! (Though nothing compared to the NHL game ;) After I got finally home, I just relaxed and in the evening I decided to go out with friends though our bunny ears hadn't arrived (everyone wore costumes because of the Halloween) but I did emergency solution and painted some blood in my lips and neck (and I still have some of the color in my neck, it looks like someone really bit me :P). I drank only one again but it was fun. First we went to a house party but it was boring and they had only beer so we decided to go downtown and there we met some other friends too. I got home in decent time and went to sleep after I had laughed at half naked guy running around the corridors. I woke up when Ashleigh came home and oh my god how drunk she was... Luckily Dezerae went elsewhere to sleep so I could go and sleep in her bed (I was afraid that Ashleigh would vomit all over though she didn't). After about 5 hours of sleep I woke up to read (though without alarm as usual). I was supposed to go and see Meikes soccer game but no-one else went there so I called her and she said it was ok if I didn't go either :) So I read a bit more...

This week I have two exams, so I'm quite busy... Oh and some random things:
We had fire alarm again few weeks ago, someone kept some stuff under the oven... Really smart. And on Monday our endocrinology professor moaned to us that we should be prepared to the exam in time (we had a review session on Friday, the exam is tomorrow) and ask questions on the review session, not after that or worse, a day before exam or even worse, after exam! I was like WTF??? How am I supposed to have time to read all the things that early?? The weekend was only coming and that's when I really have time to read... And I can't always realize everything that early and if you go and ask questions after exam, doesn't that just say that you're really interested?? So weird..
And today Kaisa said: "Taina knows everything, the thing she doesn't know, you don't need to know" :D And that was because I knew what to do with banana flies :D

Tomorrow is Halloween officially. I don't know yet what we're going to do, though I have exam until like 6 pm and I have exam on Thursday too... But we need to wear our bunny ears!

And Oh I haven't written anything about our prank!
I heard I think in the middle of last week at night some laughter and running on the corridor but was too tired to get up. On the morning someone knocked on our door but I had only just woke up so I didn't open the door. As people were walking past our door I heard giggling. I was like oh my god what's wrong there?? (I suspected something in the night too...) I thought that I need to finish my morning coffee before I dare to open the door. So when I finally opened it, there was this huge pile of Daily Iowans that just flooded in :D I was laughing so hard that Ashleigh woke up. We've had before like 3-5 Daily Iowans (we have this white board that says No Daily Iowans, please, and someone wipes the No off and puts random number in it and correct number of Daily Iowans). And on our board, it said 169 Daily Iowans, please :D It was so funny :D

So, something has finally happened :D Though my days still include mostly studying. I've started to miss Tarmo really much. And I mean really much! And I'm ready to go back Finland too, though not that badly as I know that it's so dark in there in this time of year and in here it's like Spring :D I miss our daily routines and I'm starting to be ready to write my Thesis. And for some reason I've planned what kind of courses I could keep and what kind of teacher I'd be :D Not really but only a bit ;) But enough about missing, I don't want to think about it, it makes me only sad.
I should take a shower but I think I'll do that in the morning, I'm too lazy now...

Back to ER

I visited ER again last night, Kaisa was feeling really nauseated (since Monday) so I left there with her. She got some medicine but we were back home a bit after 3 am so I've been a bit tired today, though not as tired as I would've assumed that I'd be.
Luckily I made some work from todays readings yesterday so I'm still in "schedule"... And I made the doctor laugh, I helped Kaisa when she was going to get X-rayed:
"Well, this is the first time I'm opening someone else's bra..."
"Interesting..." (Also the nurse couldn't help it but bursted into a laugh.)

Some random thing:
"What's your name?"
"Taina."
"How do you say that?"
"Taina."
"Like vagina?"
"Not quite, though I have one..."

I've been trying to get a ticket to Saturdays game, and I might have one finally... And tomorrow I'll go and carve some pumpkins, eat pizza and pumpkin pie, watch bonfire and go to a haunted house! And on Saturday I might go to the game and on Sunday I'll go and see some soccer (Meikes team is having the last game in here). So enough to do for the weekend, I still need to find some time to read... I'll have two exams next week!

And I finally found some time to do my laundry! Now I just need to wait for my towel so that I can go and take a shower...

Weather is beautiful. Sun is shining and the air is fresh and crispy. Reminds me of Finnish Spring. And I'm still smiling because of the letter :) What else? I'm quite tired so this is just brain streaming, I should eat something (been just drinking coffee) and I try to kill time so that I get my laundry ready...

Under two months! That's eight weeks!

Oh yeah, almost forgot! I'm so smart that I even surprise myself! :D Last night Kaisa got some medicine for the nausea and it made her twitch. I told her that it's because the drug effects the dopaminergic neurons, like in Parkinson's disease. I meant what I said but I never thought that it'd be THE reason. And today Kaisa gave me this:

Metoclopramide (INN) (IPA: [m?t??klopr?ma?d, -?kl?-]) is a
potent dopamine receptor antagonist used for its antiemetic
and prokinetic properties. Thus it is primarily used to
treat nausea and vomiting, and to facilitate gastric
emptying in patients with gastric stasis.

So I actually knew it!! I'm so smart!!! To bad that it comes and shows itself only occasionally :D But I really need to get something to eat...

A Letter

Oh I just got a letter from a very important person and I'm so happy that my eyes are in tears! ^^ This is my first friend from school so we've known each other for like 15 years and we're still very good friends. She's having her child (I knew that already before I left and I actually bought a gift and a card during the first weeks I was in here :P) and they just moved to a new place and oh! I'm so moved right now ^^

Strange Outfits

Something really weird I've noticed. Which is at the same time nice (for me) and very weird! And this thing is outfits. I dress up like I do in Finland, I use mostly skirts and in the fall and winter time I have this fitting jacket. And all the people say "Oh wow, you've dressed up?, Where are you going looking so nice?"! It's nice but this is how I look like always, if I'm heading somewhere special, I have make up, my hair done and some different clothes.
In Finland you don't go to the university with your sweatpants, you put nice and neat clothes. Not that you dress up or anything, not that neat clothes. But in here, people really go out even with their pajama trousers!!!! I see those EVERY day! And then I feel like I'm stared at because I have a skirt... But at the same time I like it. Most girls that do dress up like I do are in business school, and I'm mere biologist. Beware business girls, here comes a biologist who beats you! HA! Ok, I know, I'm tired... :P

And I got such a surprise today, I had a packet waiting for me! So after I got home (8 pm) I went excited downstairs to get the mysterious packet, got home and opened it. And it wasn't for me!! :(( It was a game that friend of mine ordered here because they don't deliver it to Finland... And I forgot that... But it's good, I need to go to the post office anyway soon :)

See, I feel a lot better now. Sun is shining outside and makes me feel better! And my Animal Behavior exam is over (it went ok) and it's under 2 months that I see my love! Life smiles at me again ^^ And still no pics, this connection is still shit and won't upload my pictures...

Not So Good Week

Finally I have the mood to write here. This week was pretty shit. But luckily it's over. After Mondays bad news I suddenly got in the middle of a "fight" of friends and my friendship was questioned. I felt so upset though I blame myself too. If I had kept my eyes open, I had seen this coming and wouldn't been so upset. But unfortunately I've been living inside my head and didn't see what I was supposed to see. And I usually see those things! I know I'm confusing but I don't want to get into details. So I felt miserable. Then I got sick. What a perfect week.

But I feel a lot better, we figured out the fight and hopefully that was the last time... And I think I had some fever last night too... But I feel a lot better in that field too. Today we cooked with friends in my place (and I had to clean the kitchen, again :F). It was fun and refreshing. But I still need to read something for Animal Behavior, I'll have exam on that on Tuesday. And then I'll have exams every week again until December.
So no rest for this girl until Thanksgiving week.
And it's two months even to see Tarmo!

My roommates were out last night and brought some friends with them but luckily they were here only about an hour. On Saturday I went to bed already at six! I didn't sleep but I felt so bad. And on Friday I tried to go sleeping early too but my roommates went shopping and came back and wanted to show what they had bought :)

Eight weeks... I've been just studying and living inside my thoughts. Tarmo said that our home doesn't feel like home because I'm not there :) I feel quite weird too. I feel like I'm here only like a week or so but the week is never ending week. This feels so temporary (though it is that :D)

But I don't have much to write. Just wanted you to know that I'm still kicking :)

Better Tuesday

Today was better day.

But now I've visited ER in US! No, my godmother didn't die here (can't believe I make a joke about this, but laughing has always been my method to hide from sorrow...) but I took Kaisa to there instead. She had some abdominal pain again and I tried to get her to see a doctor on Sunday but she refused to go. On Monday while we were having our lunch I said, OK, now lets go to the ER! And I'm glad I took her there, even though they still didn't know what's wrong, she got some antibiotics, painkillers and she needs to see the doctor soon again. And if the pain is not gone by tomorrow, I'll make her to see the doctor again :> And even though I missed two lectures, I'm happy that I had something to do yesterday. I was too sad to read and listen during the lectures (almost bursted in tears when Meike said that I look so tired...). And I can go to other lecture on Thursday so I actually missed only one lecture and Endocrinology isn't that bad to miss... Not that I'd want to miss my lectures but it's the easiest course I have. We were at the ER like three hours, waited only 20 minutes to see the doctor! And it was quiet and surprisingly nice there. There was even an aquarium at the waiting room (in Finland all the drunk people would brake it...). Then we went to get her medication and bought some dye for our hair! So my hair is now dark brown (and the color was supposed to be light brown though I knew this...) and I bought two lipsticks too... Beauty things make me feel better, always!
I should buy some of those everstay lipsticks for my mom too, they're so cheap in here!

So it was pretty long and exhausting day yesterday... I was so tired when I finally got back home!

Today I've been studying and I had lunch with Judith. Though I needed three cups of coffee today and even still almost fell asleep during neurobiology lecture! So I think I'm still quite sad... I laugh and sleep my sadness away... My dad sleeps also if he's sad. I believe I got the same thing. But oh my god how stupid people can be! We had our neurobiology discussion today and there was this one question about photoreceptors and something about yellow receptor... And people were so confused... I was like "RGB system people, RGB system!" And I think (and want to believe) that I eventually did well enough on my neurobiology exam, I got B! Though I didn't get good points, but the average was 66/100 and to get A you had to have 74/100... So it was pretty hard exam!

It's getting cold in here. And people dress up so weirdly! There are people with shorts, flipflops and t-shirts (though not all these combined together) and then there are people with winter jackets! So funny...

And sorry, no new pics...

And oh, I just realized, I'm half way done! I've been here 2 months and 6 days and I still have 2 months and 5 days! Or lets say this way, 2 months and 5 days until I see my darling! But that sounds too long, I prefer thinking in weeks because they go by faster than months :> But at the same time I don't want to leave all these wonderful people... And that makes me confused!

No So Good Monday

I heard this morning that my godmother had died...

What's wrong with this year?? Why is everyone dying around me???

Wannabe European Guys

Oh I've been so busy, as usual. On Thursday I started to write my animal behavior cricket lab report, on Friday I read some neurobiology and today I did some statistical analysis for the report. Though otherwise this day was quite waisted but maybe it's good once in a while...

We went last night to Piano Lounge to listen this guy play piano and he was so good. And I had one glass of white wine, so elegant! Though before going downtown we drank one glass of Kaisas white wine :) And we missed the first bus because we couldn't fit in. So we waited for the second one and because the bus ran on "wrong direction" (i.e. it when to other side of the river first) it was empty. And the bus driver had some candy for us and he played music really loud. He also drove really fast and because the benches are quite slippery, Kaisa almost fell on the floor because she didn't hold on :D I had such a good laugh! And the funny thing was that I imagined myself falling on the floor because if I hadn't had a hold of the edge of the bench, I'd have been on the floor because my feet aren't long enough to stop myself on the opposite benches :D It was funny.
And back on our way home there were these three guys and we kept teasing them with Kaisa while waiting for the bus (45 minutes, after that we decided to walk back home) :D They tried to pretend to be from somewhere else (from Europe) but somehow we knew they were from US :D

But today I was sleeping too late, I missed the first 30 minutes of the game! And that means that I slept until 11 am! I can't even remember when I did that last time! So I made some coffee and went to see the game (and we won, finally!) and after that I went to HyVee to do some grocery shopping (Kaisas roommate gave us a ride there). I tried to buy all the food I need (and I can buy beforehand) for the last two moths so that I wouldn't have to do any food shopping anymore.

But now that I'm done with my statistical analysis (I'm too lazy to continue on writing them on the report) and my laundry is done too, I'll go and do something not so useful so that I can be all energized tomorrow.

And I'm almost half through my studies in here! And we rebooked our flights, we'll be back in Finland in 5th January. We didn't get any place to stay in Nashville so we decided that we'll leave earlier. We can't afford to pay for any hotel for three weeks!

Two Months

Two months! I've been here for two months! And still 71 days left until I see my babe...

AND, I did something radical today! We didn't get any place to stay at Tennessee so we're going to leave two weeks earlier than we were supposed to leave. I just changed our flights from 18th to 4th January! We still need to book a hotel... But anyway, we're going to save quite a lot and I get home earlier!

AND, my connection is working!

AND, I had exam today and I will not have exams for two weeks!

Oh happy day!

So, connection problems solved and I can relax a bit. Though I talked with my parents this morning using Ashleighs computer. They were a bit concerned already... And I got yesterday this wonderful reflector from my mom! It's so cute ^^ What else has happened? I had long day, just got home and I'm quite tired... Oh yeah, I saw my global buddy, I haven't seen her for such a long time... We had fun time :)

ps. Tarmo said something wonderful to me this morning and I was one big smile for the whole day ^^

Innocent

As I said, I was innocent. It wasn't me who did anything and yet again it is me who suffers from this. They said that they will restore the connection in two days so I hope it works again tomorrow...

Dream

I had a dream last night that I was back in Finland and we were shopping a couch for us with Tarmo in Tampere. On our way back home I held his hand, leaned in his lap and cried, I don't want ever to leave from you again...

Chicago Baby!

Our weekend was so amazing, I had such a good time!

The city and our hosts welcomed us warmly with hot weather and a cold glass of wine. We were at Chicago at eight and after some chatting we went to downtown to Hancook Center to see Chicago at night time. We were there just in time because it closed just after we were ready with our tour. After that we spent some time trying to find some place to eat and finally went to small pizza/bar place and ate traditional stuffed Chicago pizza and were back home about at one am. We were supposed to get up at seven on the next morning but finally got up at eight and had some breakfast. After that we headed to the Shedd Aquarium, missed our stop and walked all through Millennium Park back to the aquarium. And it was huge and so beautiful! We spent there like four hours, went through all the displays and watched a dolphin show. And I loved the sharks! The wall of that aquarium was curved so that it was on you too! And the sharks were BIG!
After that we walked again through Millennium Park and got to Navy Pier. There we ate good ice creams and continued our trip to the NHL hockey game! Chicago Blackhawks against Detroit Red Wings. And it was so easy to yell "GO HAWKS!" :D Oh we were so excited about the game with Kaisa, there was Tuomo Ruutu playing too! And he made a goal too! And of course we won (though Iowa Hawks didn't win, they had game too that day). The game had some different rules from Finnish hockey, after first 20 seconds there was a fight between two players and the judges didn't do anything! And of course there were all kind of shows in American style. But it was fun to yell PERKELE! And to see hockey, which is kind of the only sports I get excited.
After that we went back home and it was again after midnight and we were so tired after all the walking. Oh yeah, and I almost forgot!! Before the game we went to the beach and took some really nice pictures from there! I just have to get them from Meike first.
On Sunday we got up at nine and had some really good breakfast our host family made (stuffed pancakes) and at 11 am we left again to downtown just to walk around and see the Chicago marathon. There were a lot of people and the weather was hot. We browsed some souvenir shops (and the only thing I bought from Chicago was a Chicago magnet where you can put a pic or card...) and headed back at 2:30. And finally left back to Iowa City at 3:30. So I was in time to see Desperate Housewives!

And the host family was so nice! And oh my god their apartment! It was so beautiful and big! We're going to get some gift basket for them. I really felt welcomed!

So the weekend was really nice, I'm glad we went there. But back to reality, I have Endocrinology exam on Wednesday and I really haven't had time to read for it yet, so I'll have to live at the library again for a few days. And then I need to start to catch up everything else. But then it's no exams in two weeks! And on Tuesday morning I have the appointment. Blah. But I really hope that we can figure out things so that I could talk with my parents again!

On our way back home I listened to Poets of the Fall and dreamed about Tarmo. When we were at Savolinna for the first summer we dated, he took me to a rides and showed me all the pretty places there and we listened to Poets of the Fall then. So it always reminds me of our first summer ^^ And when we were at the beach, I drew his name on the sand <3

ps. I'll post the pics when I get them out from my camera... I was lazy now, sorry! And here's an article about the marathon, someone actually died (there were ambulances running all the time...) http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20071008/ap_on_sp_ot/run_chicago_marathon

Culture Shock

Ystavan sanoin:

Normaaleissa sivistysvaltioissa olet syyton kunnes toisin todistetaan, taalla olet syyllinen kunnes toisin todistetaan.

I got an e-mail: the interned guy can't see you next Wednesday, please call or meet the secretary to reschedule the meeting.

So in my luck I will not get the appointment next week. Fuck them!

Luckily I get away from here for the weekend. As I said to Tarmo, it's good that I figured out these systems (and how they don't work) now and not then when we're moving in here. I'm starting to think that I want to be poor my whole life and stay in Finland. US is nice place but these systems don't really work. I can understand the university policies, people in here are really stupid and they need supervision, but I've lived on my own long enough to know how to behave. I don't need people to pamper me or act like I was a child. The thing that I'm an exchange student and not always able to express myself quickly does not mean that I'm stupid.

These little things get me down... And Tarmo is not feeling well either so I feel sad about that... I can handle my "depression" by working and sleeping but the thing that I can't help Tarmo makes me want to cry.

My connection wouldn't be that important to me but it's the only way I can keep in touch with Tarmo, my parents and mother in law. I can't show my feelings (i.e. cry) in public places so that's why I don't want to talk to my mom or Tarmo in our ITC lab. It's not that I'd just cry all the time but I need to be able to cry sometimes when I feel like crying. And we haven't set up any actual times (especially with my mom since we both have a life too) when I'm at computer and when she's at computer so that we can talk. It's just once a week coincidence that we happen to be there at the same time.

I know that I'm in culture shock now (it came a bit late though) and I miss people badly but don't worry, I'm not going to give up!

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6 hours later...

I feel better already because Tarmo is feeling better :) I wasn't early enough home so I couldn't re-schedule my appointment, I have to go there tomorrow morning before coming here. I still need to do my laundry but all the machines were taken and I need two machines so I'll wait for few hours. Luckily it takes only a bit over hour to get the laundry clean and dry.

But I'll go for a walk with Kaisa...

I really needed the good night sleep, I feel a lot better now! After my morning stuff I went downstairs to talk with Tarmo and tried to call to the internet guy the whole time. Eventually after 1,5 hours not getting any answer I went to the front desk. And they said that their phone hadn't been ringing! But I made the appointment to discuss about my "violation" and got it NEXT WEEK! Because he's not there today and tomorrow I have classes the whole day and he didn't have morning times, I can go to figure this out only next week Wednesday. They told me that he deals with these things only once a week. Argh! Luckily I'm not home on weekend.

But the weather is nice and I'm not tired so I feel a lot better.

The desk lady also said that this had been busy day... I wonder if others has got the same problem too... I still don't have a clue what might be the reason the disabled my connection... But i need to go to my class, I have my neurobiology exam today!

Tornado (real one and me)

OK, I hate this! I want to go back Finland where there is a proper internet connection that is working right! AGAIN! They fucking disconnected me AGAIN!!! Now they accuse me for copyright violation! AGAIN I USE ONLY IRC, SKYPE, MESSENGER AND FIREFOX AND I DO NOT DOWNLOAD ANYTHING!
So now I need to call to some person to talk about my "violation" and they do not take appointments on the same day so I don't get my internet working this week because I'm leaving for Chicago on Friday. For fuck sake! This really pisses me off. Luckily I talked with my mom yesterday. But now I won't hear Tarmos voice until next week...
This is not my day, I'm so tired and pissed off!

I didn't sleep well thanks to someone so I was really tired and I needed to get up early so that I could finish my readings. And Tuesdays are always long days and there was this tornado warning so I couldn't get home. But I'll start from yesterday.

I decided to go to CoralRidge to get some post cards and because of that I needed to read late. I'll have my exam on tomorrow night from 8 to 9 pm. Then I need to start reading for my endocrinology and then I have two weeks time to catch up everything and then it starts all over again. And I asked my professor in Finland about my courses for the next Spring. There's this one course I can't do but we'll figure out what I do with it when I get back in Finland. And I'm still trying to think what to do about the "job course". Maybe I'll figure that out too when I get back. I just need to finish my Masters Thesis and after that I'll think what I want to do. The course would be useful but at the same time I want to graduate asap. I'll see.

And as I already mentioned, I talked with my mom yesterday. And I asked if she was ok because of the dream I had last week. She bursted in tears and sobbed that she's ok, just stressed out because of the water damage and because she misses me. I also asked about my birth (since I've been inspired lately because of this Developmental course) and she told that I was born on week 30. 30! I always knew I was born early, but THAT early... (Her placenta was falling apart.) I wonder if that affects on anything...

And I had a good laugh yesterday because of my self. I was writing a card for my niece and I was thinking in English while writing in Finnish, the I thought that oh no, now I wrote it in Finnish, then I thought no, wait a minute, that's what I was supposed to do :D I'm so funny.

I was reading some Finnish web pages today before my late discussion for two hours and when I finally left to my class, I was really confused and it felt unreal, because I felt that I was in Finland but then again I was walking in Iowa. And it was raining really heavily today and my shoes didn't even get wet! Or they did but my socks didn't! Good shoes!

And I've been feeling a bit down. (Now even more thanks to the internet thing. Well, actually, I'm just pissed off because of that.) But this is weird. When I was single (few years ago when my last relationship ended) I felt down but now this feels better because I'm not alone. I know there is someone else who is missing me also, I'm in someones heart. So my heart is not broken, it just misses someone badly. I'm not alone with my feelings and it makes me feel better.
As I have already mentioned, we're going to Chicago next weekend. But somehow I'm not as excited as I would like to be :( I do want to go and I know it'll be fun. I just need to get the tomorrows exam off me and maybe then I can think something else too...

Weather has been gray and we had a big thunderstorm, Fall is coming. And today when our discussion started at 7 pm, there was sirens and people looked a bit worried. It was a tornado warning. We decided to continue and go to the basement if there is another alarm. On the same time the TA checked where the tornado is going (he said it was in Kalona). At 7.30 pm we got another alarm and we hurried up our questions and finished the class. There was people waiting downstairs and the wind was quite harsh. I could see the lightning but there was no sound. And the lightnings were small and continuous and at the same place for long time. It didn't rain anymore and finally the bus driver opened the bus at 8 pm but we had to wait some other bus so I was heading back home at 8.30 pm. It was quite exciting but what makes me wonder, is that people in here didn't know what to do. it was weird.

So then I got home, found out the not so nice surprise and here I am, at out ITC lab. I just needed to come and write these things down because I don't have the time to do that tomorrow, I need to pack and do some reading on Thursday and on Friday we'll leave as soon as our classes are over.

So I survived from the tornado :D and I'm pissed off again. In a week I've been here for two months, half a way already. And I'm missing my love. But still not homesick, I just miss our Finnish systems... As I said to Kaisa, I do not miss places, I miss people. And I miss them a lot now.